ive always been a believer in quality over quantity. having a lot of friends has never been my domain, regardless of knowing a lot of individuals, few i extend the classification of “friend” much less “good friend”.

more and more i realize these “good friends” i have i barely ever spend time with. either due to physical distance or time, i start to wonder what a good friend really is. i have acquaintances who i would casually call “friend” out of respect, but they know nothing about me or what they do know is very minute and superficial. i have acquaintances i see more than i do my “friends”, but there is nothing about them that makes me feel the same camaraderie as i do with others.

then there are those who were good friends and have simply retained that classification just because of time, history and loyalty. I start to wonder if they even consider me a friend or if ive just become an acquaintance or someone from their past.

though i have learned that good friends in my past remain ppl i care for, they don’t really contribute to my life much these days. i miss having a good handful of really good friends i could count on and just spend time with as i did in the past. i miss my sister.

perhaps the hardest reality was that for so long, my close circle of friends i left back home in Hawaii have become.. strangers. while i tried several times to reach out and spend time with them, i found they were less than interested.

permanence is an illusion. so are the ties that bind.

christian’s family had campground reservations at san elijo state beach in north county san diego. he shoo’d his parents away and on sunday-monday the kids were able to take over.

i mean.. its not really camping in that, on one side of a cliff and a short staircase were on front beach property, and on the other side of us is the city of encinitas, and the tracks amtrak trains. but HEY! I’m a city girl and this is as outdoors as i need to get.

it was awesome! chad, nina and will showed up from the la crew, and we hooked up with christian, a few of his co workers and his adorable sisters julie, liz, and emma and their awesome friends.

as of right now there is red tide a form of agal bloom all along so-cali coast. in the daytime the water looks like a reddish brown yohoo drink (thanks brandon for the perfect description), however in the evening.. its a whole different story.

if you have ever seen blue lagoon, and they swim in the ocean at night, you’ll remember the blue iridescent glow. well thats exactly what red tide looks like at night. with every crashing wave, all that use to be white, is a beautiful vibrant glowing blue. when you walk along the sand and drag your feet or kick it, it glows, streaks, sparks the same amazing color.

before red tide is over, i encourage any of you near a beach experiencing the phenomenon, go to the beach at night and watch the natural amazing glow show. i only wish i had pictures but they wouldn’t come out at all.

however, I’m now sunburned on my shoulders and back and it hurts! and joel has lobster legs hehe. the sun and i don’t have a very healthy relationship! >_<